Ryne
Darkness Couldn't Put It Out
During the darkest days of my life, every memory is pieced by the presence of light.
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Ryne
Jan 10, 20232 min read
My hands opened while my heart broke
There are many things I didn't know before losing my son Anders to positional asphyxia in 2019, as we honor him today, read what I learned.
Ryne
Dec 7, 20224 min read
Sometimes it doesn't make sense: Our thoughts on a seasonal favorite
Loss sometimes leads to change that previously wouldn't make sense. For us, one of those changes centers around a Christmas classic.
Ryne
Dec 1, 20222 min read
Just Released: Interview with Brandon Smith of the Bluestem Project Podcast
A number of months ago, I had the opportunity to sit down with a college friend Brandon to share our story with him & his podcast audience.
Ryne
Jul 21, 20225 min read
Refined in the Fire: What marshmallows reminded me about following Jesus
What was a marginal improvement a few hours earlier was now a different food. The vanilla shines when the fire is put to the marshmallow.
Ryne
Jun 22, 20225 min read
"Un" answered Prayers: Trusting God when what I pray for isn't what I get
We were not only asking God to give us a child, we were banging on the door of His house, crying out to Him to bring a child into our family
Ryne
Jun 4, 20225 min read
"It's Not Your Fault" Sharing Anders's Story with Car Seat Manufacturers
Boring saves lives. Safe sleep practices are all about preventing the preventable, and that is worth being boring.
Ryne
Apr 19, 20226 min read
Grieving the Loss of Snow
When we finally did come inside, she peeled her coat and snow pants off of herself and then melted into a puddle on the floor.
Ryne
Mar 1, 20224 min read
3-2-1, Chuck your Ducks!
Every time I think about those three days, I am glad that we had them - I'm glad that he was alive when we got to the hospital.
Ryne
Jan 31, 20224 min read
To the people in my corner
Walking up a hill can be like walking through grief. Having someone in your corner for each of those lightens the load.
Ryne
Jan 11, 20224 min read
Unthinkable Peace
We felt peace in the midst of the greatest trial we have faced - a peace that was unexplainable outside of the work of God.
Ryne
Dec 14, 20214 min read
Goodnight, Goodnight, Sweetheart
Fitting. Whether it is at the end of a night or at the end of a life, a reminder of the ever-surpassing, neverending, love of Jesus matters.
Ryne
Oct 21, 20216 min read
It's Hard to Read Over that Ventilator: A Plea to Follow Safe Sleep Guidelines
He laid in the crib, hooked up to tubes and monitors, with the thumping sound of the high-velocity ventilator drowning out the other beeps.
Ryne
Oct 12, 20216 min read
My Son is Already There: A Father's Thoughts About Heaven
In the same church I was now sitting, our pastor shared a similar announcement about Anders.
Ryne
Jul 6, 20214 min read
Tears at Touch Down
Two of our children were playing on a playground in the shadow of a hospital where their brother took his last breath.
Ryne
Jun 15, 20217 min read
SimbaCam and the Red Button
But then there is the grief that isn't obvious, the pain that sneaks up when grieving someone.
Ryne
May 21, 20214 min read
"Is this heaven?" - "No. It's..."
“So Anders and I had to stop by the field today. This won’t be his last day helping me prep a field...”
Ryne
Mar 9, 20213 min read
As they played together...
“I know, it seems like for the first time in their lives, all three of our kids are playing together.”
Ryne
Feb 9, 20213 min read
"Daddy, do you like my watch?"
When I glanced down, I noticed that she had a familiar silicon band on her left wrist, but by no means did Linnea have a watch.
Ryne
Jan 26, 20214 min read
A Constant Fear
Instead, as I chopped onions in the kitchen, I felt a fear that grips me every time Linnea or Elias is in the middle of a long, restful nap.
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